Back to being perky

Ha – I think I can actually hear the sighs of relief from all over South West London and the far reaches of wherever this blog is now read from:

 'At last – a blog post title I can finally face reading on from'

 'Thank god she's stopped being so sodding miserable'

'Excellent, she's biffed MM on the nose, stolen its lunch (as suggested by Mikey) and is much happier now she's got a ham & mustard sandwich and a bag of Sensations to nosh on…'

Fair shout!

Actually, am DELIGHTED to report that I had a sort of epiphany this weekend. From the depths of shitdamn misery (sorry M&M for postponing Sun night but I really would have been dire company) suddenly something clear finally materialised.

No, fear not, I didn't see God descemding from the white clouds, beckoning me to join the Christian flock, with a Bible under his wispy arm, but instead I FINALLY GOT MY HEAD AROUND WHAT TO DO NEXT.

Now this should maybe have been a simple question. Normal approach would be to think:

– what's the issue?

– what are the options to solve it?

– which one works best for me and anyone else involved?

And Bob's your uncle. Job done. Nailed. In the bag and off to the pub for a celebratory shandy.

BUT – the whole question of work, what to do for the best, balancing the things I have to have (health insurance and a few pence of income) with what I want (not to keep doing the same job I've been in for 16 years and starting to drive everyone including myself potty, but also not wanting to bite the hand that feeds me) was one I couldn't solve.

BUT NOW – I THINK - I HAVE. 

As the Great Dawning was only Sunday night from 2-6am, things are still at the discussion stage and not yet been shared internally so I can't say any more for now (lucky you, can't imagine the ins and outs of what I do for a living are good for anything eexcept late night soporific reading) but it's already feeling really, really positive. Even Mr H has commented that I don't sound quite such a miserable old bag on the phone when he calls, so just the prospect of change must be starting to work a little bit of perky-uppy magic.

Anyway more to come when it gets underway and I think maybe it might be nice news for a few of you guys too. Can't say who yet or I'll give the game away if I haven't already.

Suffice it to say – its the first time I''ve felt excited about work and the coming months in a while, and as its a biggish part of life, its a nice feeling to have.

Woofty doofty, onwards and upwards.  

Oh, and if you're a current AV-er reading this, can I ask you to keep it to yourself for now – not that it's thrilling or earth-shattering in any way, but best to keep it sort of under wraps till the music stops and the parcel can be opened.

Just couldn't resist writing something positive for a change, and to reassure that I am still decent company over a cocktail, not that my previous posts would have made that look likely!

Cheers all – will share more when I can (if I can keep my gob shit that long, that is)

Sx